Day Two - Again...

As I wrote the other day, I made a mistake and allowed myself to have a glass of wine at a friend's house.  I was close to making a huge mistake and majorly backsliding, but I did not.  Instead, I told my husband what my new drinking patterns have become, where every single hiding place I have for alcohol in the house is, and a few incidents recently that I found personally mortifying and was too embarrassed to share with anyone.  

My husband is supportive and loving, when I am honest with him and pursue my recovery in earnest.  He does not have time or patience for excuses, justifications, or dishonesty.

Today, I stayed sober and will write more about it tomorrow.

I had a run-in with a neighbor today.  I lived in Philadelphia for 15 years and never had a single disagreement with a neighbor.  Apparently, I have been very rude by allowing my children to go down the street (three doors away) and ask her son to play without calling ahead or setting up a play date.  Meanwhile, her son comes over to our house unannounced all of the time.  It never bothered me, because I thought that is what children do.  She told me that I was taking advantage of her kindness.  Though she does not know me at all, she said I seem like a very angry woman and that I that I thrive on creating drama with my neighbors.  She has lived here since this past April and is moving on September 1st.

This really upset me, because, again, I do not know this woman at all and have never had a disagreement with her previously or any other neighbor (roommate, sure.)

The first thing I wanted to do after this bizarre exchange of words was have a glass of wine and a cigarette, but I didn't.  I talked to my husband about it and he said when someone lashes out like that, there is usually a lot more behind it that has very little to do with you.

My instinct is to ignore the situation, instead of resolving it.  We leave this Wednesday for Canandaigua, New York and we will be there for the rest of the summer.  I remember the saying from AA meetings that you should not let another person rent space in your head.  So, this must be what was meant, right?

More tomorrow...